Hi Matthew
Wow your story is my story or it was 7 months ago. I drank every night usually a bottle of wine then off to bed, wake up hungover and off to work saying I am not drinking tonight but by lunchtime when I started to feel better I would think ok I have a few tonight and that was my life for over 5 years. For me the bottle of wine started to turn into 2 as I started to panic when that one bottle was gone in a hour. I was not living and scared to stop drinking as I could not picture my life without a drink.
OMG what life, I didn't have one, drinking was my life. I too started a diet and was allowed 17 ww points I drank 10-12 of them and eat nothing almost just allowing 5-7 points for food.
For me as an all or nothing person I had to quit totally and I did that with the help of a treatment centre. It was the best decision I have ever made. Read loads on here, believe you can do it. I had not gone one day without a drink for 20 years and I am 7 months sober on Friday so you can do.
I wish you all the best.
Ally
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