That was great stuff, DoubleBarrel. I relate so closely to many things in your post. I remember so clearly the moment when I said - alright that's it, whatever the crap may be that I have to deal with, I am going to do it sober, dammit. This being drunk all the time just can't go on. I deserve so much more than this misery.
And as you said, the knowledge that I am dealing constructively and sober with issues that crippled me before was a huge and instant boost to the self esteem gland that had taken such a beating for years.
Your post means a lot to many who won't or can't respond to it yet. Your words convey a sort of experience, strength and hope that is uniquely yours, DoubleBarrel. Thanks.