Hi and welcome xxseekingsoberx
It can be hard when you drink to deal with feelings like remorse shame guilt & fear , but drinking is causing you to have those feelings...
Support really helps tho, and you'll find a lot of that here
It possible to stay sober - even when we haven't quite dealt with some of the underlying reasons that factor into why we drink
Check out our Class of October thread in this forum - you'll find a lot of support there as well
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