Thanks so much to those of you who responded!
I lost my response trying to insert an emoticon--drat! But the gist is that I went to my meeting, talked to my sponsor, and feel a bit stronger. The responses to this thread have helped a lot.
The next Al-Anon meeting is at 10 am Tuesday. I will continue to pray to be willing. Prayer in action is to continue to make meetings, call my sponsor, and ask for help.
Speaking of which--Freedom, I will take you up on your kind offer. PM on the way!