Hi Eve
Sorry to hear of the predicament you find yourself in. And sorry to hear that you have been banned from a group in which you were comfortable.
I am a recovering codeine addict and know how hard it is to kick this without help and support.
I am in the UK - and would suggest that you might like to go along to an NA meeting? People are incredibly supportive.......... Even if just to get as much knowledge as you can. You dont need to be an addict to go along - but with knowledge comes power?
Could you not reapply to the group from which you have been banned - ask the moderator to re-consider? You have to be an advocate in your own cause. Explain how you made a mistake and that you need and value the support previously given. At least its worth a shot?
You will of course get tons of help and support in this forum. So keep posting............
woops