Originally Posted by
bluejaybruise 
Dear Mom,
I love you.
I've read, and read, and read up on how to help a meth addict and so far the best advice I've heard was to make the fear of using outweigh the fear of withdraw.
I would like to spend Christmas here with you, stepdad, little brother and big brother but will not if you are high.
Now if I could I'd wish on stars and genies and pray to god to cure you with a snap of my fingers but it isn't that easy.
Nothing ever is.
I want a mother of the bride. I want my children to have a grandmother. I want to be beside you on your death bed, and spread your ashes. I do.
When you need help, ask! Ask and I will do everything I can to help you within reason. Finally.
Sincerely,
daughter
This is what is left after removing the guilt, threats, and manipulation.
You are certainly allowed your feelings of hurt, it sure sounds like you've earned them.
You've come to a good place to vent and learn how to deal with our side of the addiction process. It's all here, just keep reading.