You will get off, you will get sick of it, I did.
No contact was the first step, it took many tries, believe me.
You are getting sick of it. The only way to get off the crazy train is to step off.
It's really hard.
Just remember , everything he says he says to manipulate you. Blame shifting, denial, twisting everything you say, on and on and on til you question yourself.
Have you read Getting Them Sober, the Addictive Personality, Addictive Thinking???
These three books helped me tremendously. MsTrust, keep posting, you are doing good work here.
Katie xo