You already know that he is not relationship material, with that said, you are keeping
yourself in a self imposed prison with invisible bars, you hold the key to the door in the palm of your hand and can open it at any time. The longer you stay in this prison, the more isolated you will become.
You are young, start reliving your life, get out with your friends, date others, let him go, he
has nothing to offer you, but pain and heartache.