Thanks guys...Just so frustrated with myself sometimes. I guess if I do continue the work I'm doing, I will get stronger as I go...I mean, I feel better now than I did in July, so I must be doing something right. Sometimes I just wonder if I'm more used to the pain of it. He has talked with me about working on myself and my issues in the past and I think he may have been under the impression that I would get better at putting up with things rather than better at taking care of myself and valuing myself so I wouldn't feel the need anymore to put up with things. It's a long road and I guess sometimes I get impatient.
And LMN--yes, he is an addiction. I can't deny that. Codependency at its finest.