Originally Posted by
dancingnow 
I am always expecting my mom to be there for me in a way that she never was...,
I do just fine putting my "big girl pants" on and living my life, except when I go looking for something a little bit more from my mom.
You've pretty much described me to a t, and then some!
It took many years of disappointment, disparaging remarks from my mom, all those good things that go along with expecting a parent to be other than who they are.
It was painful and yet freeing when I accepted that my mom could never be the mom I wanted, and in essence, I had to learn to parent that little girl inside of me that always seemed to pop up when interacting with Mom.
Today we do have as close a relationship as possible considering how frail she is physically and emotionally. I do know that there are things I just don't discuss with her anymore, nor look to her for support on those things.
I guess I finally got tired of beating my head against the wall!
Sending you hugs of support on the humid Kansas winds today!
