my husband relapsed on crack cocaine
hi, i am new to this site but feel like i have no where else to go. i have been with my husband for 8 years. we have 2 beautiful children together and he is addicted to crack cocaine. 3 years ago, he admitted to me that he had been lying for a year and was addicted. He began NA and got sober. after a year of NA he stop going. but was still sober. another year passed and he began to socially drink around friends. i knew in my heart then that things were going down hill. 2 weeks ago money staarted coming out of our accounts in the middle of the night when he was supposedly at work. i confronted him and gave him a drug test 2 days ago and OF COURSE IT WAS POSITIVE. i am not sure what to do, where to go, how to help him, how to shield my babies, and how to learn to heal again. he is staying at his parents for a trial seperation the past few days. i want to show him what it will be like without his wife and kids around. i just want a wake up call. he is starting back meetings and i am going to join naranon. but i dont know what to do. i feel as if the families always suffer more. the addict gets praise for being clean and the family has to learn trust and forgive all over again when we didnt do anything wrong in the first place. i feel soo angry, betrayed, broken hearted and scared for our future.