Welcome Smiler!!
We all hurt the ones we love the most. Have faith in yourself, keep smilin, and keep coming back here. I found this site by accident, and now have been sober 14 days today. I feel better everyday. I hope things work out with the person you hurt, but I also hope that person is forgiving and knows that your sick, and sees that now your ready to face it, deal with it and tackle it. You need all the love and support you can get right now, and if this person truly cares they'll have your back. Good luck and keep us posted on your journey. It's a wild ride....
Tigerlilly