Dorris

It's been 32 days since my last drink and i've been going to 2 meeting a week. I have been through loads of emotions, but the worst is after an AA meeting I feel drained, absolutely exhausted and so depressed with tears.

Sitting there listening to everyone's stories of their rock bottoms and the pain they caused loved ones, they repeat the same stories over and over again, even chats before after the meeting those who have been sober for 14 yrs and more still go to meeting 3-4 weeks and still talk about how bad things was for them, they all like to talk about them selves.

Yes they have offered me support, phone numbers etc, but no one listens to me really listens to me, it always seems to be turned on how bad it was for them and by time it's my turn to speak in meeting I'm such a reck as soon as I open my mouth I just cry and cry.

Although it is helping me at the moment, I want a life without alcohol but don't want to commit the rest of my life to AA.

I'm struggling with every thought possible, where my head hurts all day.