Good morning, needtostopnow.
I'm so glad you are here.
I'm sure you have spent some time reading and hopefully have found some comfort/relief that there are a ton of regular people just like you that struggle with this addiction.
I think that you can turn this around in your head and it will be ok. Instead of thinking people will miss your drunken self, instead think about how nice it will be for you and them to know your sober self! I had a number of uncles and a father who drank. I always loved them. But when they stopped, I found that I really liked them as people.
I dunno, maybe I'm biased, but I think we ARE particularly likeable people. We just need to let down or defenses enough to let ourselves be who we are without the protection or anesthetizion of the drink.
Again, welcome. I'm glad you found us.