Just wanted to say thanks to all the people here who suggested I give AA a try. I'm just starting 90 meetings in 90 days and this time around I really feel differently about it. I like it. I'm in a much different space than when I first tried it, 20 years ago. I have a lot more to lose, 20 years older, and my alcoholism has taken be a lot farther down. So I'm appreciative and grateful and happy to be among people who understand how I feel all the way through... being scared, grateful, angry, selfish, sad, all of it without judging.
I just wanted to put this in the newcomers' forum (which I am too, 7 days sober) because it really helped me to go. At the very least I am in a safe place for an hour where I can't do anything stupid.
I hope it's ok that I posted this here.
"The things you take for granted, someone else is praying for."