Thank you for all your replies, especially you EnglishGarden,
I was naive and did not know the severity of his addiction, As I read more and realize how sick he is, I know that there is nothing that I can do. I really needed to hear that I am making it worse by enabling him. I needed to hear the truth ,
As much as it hurts I know I have to let him go.
Thank you again, I hoping to regain myself and feel like me again..