Well, 18 days clean and I am still so, so, sooo depressed. I guess this is what is meant by faith... I don't feel god, but I know my HP is there. I reach out for help and maybe it will come. I know there will be a time when I will be happy again if I stay sober and work a program of recovery. They say: stay until the miracles happen. Well, today I am determined to do just that. Nothing else works, so for today I will not use.
I am an addict. I want patience NOW!!!!
jojo