Oh I am sorry. I have been sober for 4 days. I woke up this morning early (it's 5 am) While I was standing in my kitchen thanking God for being sober I thought about my job. My first thought was,"Things will be better now" My second was," Just because I stopped drinking does'nt mean everything is going to be magically easy" I realized that I am thinking like a child. If I am good Santa will give me that present I want. You don't sound like that. I am really immature about some things.
You still have your job. That is good. They must want you around so you have'nt completely blown it. You can get your reputation back. I hope someone tells me this if this happens to me. I have been buzzed while talking to my clients. I wake up the next day I wonder if they could tell.