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Dear Courtenay: In November of 2009 my AS withdrew cold turkey from several years of opiate addiction. 4 days into being severely sick from withdrawals he was helped by a suboxone doctor. He stayed opiate free for the next YEAR and THREE MONTHS; on suboxone. He did 90 meetings in 90 days, got a GREAT sponsor, he excelled at his job (winning various employee awards) found a girl friend, worked out at a gym, started eating right, etc. etc. etc. The whole family was thrilled and thought we were "out-of-the-woods". Sometime in the summer of 2011, he decided that beer was "ok" as it was not his DOC.

Fast forward to 9/19/2012 - close to death on a ventilator in the ICU from a suicide attempt due to the chaos, degredation and hopelessness of being ensnared in the same addiction he once broke free of. The relapse began with the non-DOC = alcohol.

So no, alcohol is not ok for someone who cannot resist the euphoria that these substances promise & provide. It's a wonder that we are not all addicted, as powerful and pleasant as these things are. They are just so deadly.

Read the following story posted by Serenityqueen on this website. It is utterly chilling:

"Hello,

Have we met before? If not, let me tell you a little about myself. I don’t share myself with just anyone. I pick only a chosen few who will appreciate me, and then, only if the timing is perfect. I have chosen you. For people like you are very special to me because it is your kind who are receptive to my many talents. You’ll be very anxious to know me better, and as soon as we touch, the physical attraction between us soars. We’ll continue our encounter, with me leading you down a path of pure physical ecstasy. You’ll feel no shame at having gone “all the way’ on our first date. All you’ll feel is exhilaration. And you’ll beg for more.
At first, our attraction will be purely physical. But you must realize that this is a very important phase of our relationship. Be confident that it will grow into something much deeper. I am. As we get to know each other better, your interest will become emotional as well as physical. You’ll learn to come to me with your problems, for not only will I help you with them, but I will somehow take away their deep pain. I’ll give you the best I have and I’ll be patient. I’ll know, in time that you will give yourself totally to me.
When you’re with me, you’ll feel warm and secure. I will ease your mind, soothe away your troubles, and fill your soul with pleasure for with me, you’ll feel as if you can conquer the world, as if you have a special key to happiness. You’ll enjoy living again. I’ll be the answer to your unspoken prayers. You’ll soon wonder how you ever lived without me.
As our relationship grows, you’ll start to exclude others from your life . . but that’s o.k. You know that I can give you all you need. I’ll be your lover, best friend and confidante. I will always be available when you need me. This I will prove to you time and time again, and you’ll realize that you don’t need others – when you have someone like me, all others seem inadequate.
So we’ll see more and more of each other and decide that it is really impractical not to live together, so we’ll make that move. Our life together will encompass many beautiful experiences. We’ll do it all together, swim in the ocean, picnic on the beach, fly kites and whenever you feel the urge, we’ll make love. Our relationship will be devoid of fights and arguments. I give myself completely to you, knowing I’ll receive the same in return.
You’ll soon realize that you’ve dedicated your life to me. It will happen before you know it. It sort of takes you by surprise, and you’ll wonder if maybe you should spend some time alone, away from me. After all, people say everyone needs some time alone, even it they’re in love. And face it; you are irresistibly in love with me. So you vow to take some time alone, even though you don’t want to. You’ll start out to spend the day in solitary adventure, doing something you’ve always wanted to do. After only a few hours, though, you’ll find that you’re not really enjoying yourself and realize that you miss me more than you ever thought you could. You’ll feel a terrible empty voice without me and think about coming back home. It makes you a little angry that you didn’t keep the promise to yourself, but you rationalize that you don’t have to come home, rather you just want to. The whole way home you tell yourself that if you really wanted to spend the day alone, you could. You just didn’t want to.
When you walk through that door, it will fill my heart with pleasure, for I’d be hoping that you wouldn’t spend the whole day away from me.
You’ll come running to me, and I’ll take you in my arms and hold you so tightly that it becomes a bit painful, but you won’t mind. Though you won’t see my face as I embrace you, I’ll have a very satisfied smile. For it’s the moment I have been waiting for. I’ve got you where I want you. You now have no choice. You cannot live without me and I’ll love it!
It is precisely at this point that you cease to be my lover, and you become my victim. You see, my ultimate goal is to murder you, and I have begun to do just that. But my methods are slow. I can do it slowly because you won’t be able to leave me even though you know I am killing you. That’s the joy of it, the beauty of it! You will make a choice to die, and you’ll let me do it.
Do you recognize me yet? You should . . . for you see, this relationship has already taken place between you and I. We are intimately acquainted, and now, I am patiently waiting for you to come back to me. I will follow you and wait for you whenever you go. I can wait forever. You see, I am your drug of choice.

Author Unknown"