Originally Posted by journeygal
You are powerless over your husband but when it comes to you, you are powerful.
I think the hardest part, is that we are compassionate, and loving towards our lovers, and what I have done to protect my heart, is to remove the romantic illusions, that If i love him he'll change, realizing that I was losing my own light and burning in the fires we created, it almost becomes ritualistic when he pampers me after he comes home drunk/stoned, he'll pick me up in his arms, put me to bed and hold me tight, I guess I craved that,....then one day I woke up, and chose life....I realized that I was powerless over his drinking, and that it wasn't about love, we had plenty....it was the sickness, and I was indeed becoming sick in heart and spirit, so I set him free...
I miss him, I dont know where he is, since I removed him from my home, but I now that I am powerful now that i am only responsible for me....
goodluck, I understand....bring the light back!! the brightest lights get the most bugs
