I am glad you posted again, Tammy, I wondered if there was some more grist for this mill.
My AVRT has grown and deepened over the last year, and there have been a couple of milestones where the ideas gelled and took solid form. One of them was when I understood that the AV can get as loud as it wants to, but since my plan is in place and it can't make me drink no matter what it says, the beast can't make me scared about drinking again. That was a little muddled. How about this - Since I will never drink again no matter what, my beast has no power over me, and its ranting won't frighten me, or make me doubt myself.
Wondering if your resolve will weaken someday, is the classic embodiment of the beast. When you come to understand that, and accept that you will hear its voice sometimes, you will become more content and secure.
Thanks for posting again, Tammy.