When I say I hate him........like I am thinking right now........am I really saying I hate myself for acting like an immature brat......because he wants to go to the movies with his friend.....I think so......Life is hard because I am making it hard.......I no that I am focusing on him when (what) I could be cooking, cleaning, taking care of the kids and the dogs..........no I cant do any of that right now.......because I am to upset and sick of all this BS.....BS that I bring upon myself........I am trying to change......erggggggggg