How terrible for you KDH. Especially since you had no clue he was using.
I completely understand your need to numb those raw feelings - but I'm sure there will come the day you'll decide to lay it down and begin to reclaim your life. You still have the rest of your family to love and care for - and many years ahead to heal and enjoy life again.
I'm glad you posted. Please continue to stay in touch and let us know how you are.