Hi and Welcome,
I think you know how you feel and what you need to do. Getting opinions from others isn't really useful because you know the feeling of losing control and what happens. And, yes, stopping drinking is a big step and requires changes of friends/activities, etc. However, the work involved is so worth the feeling of peace. I blacked out numerous times and it's the most scary thing ever. There are chunks of my life that I have absolutely zero recollection of.
I'm glad you found us.
