You guys don't even know how much I appreciate the support, it's really helping me a lot. Sapling, I'm still in jail and will be here until a spot opens at the facility I'm supposed to be going to. This could take a week, or could take 3 months, I have no clue, they say it just varies. I am not getting a chance to attend meetings, I wish I could, but right now my hope and strength is in my Higher Power. Does this get easier with time? I can't even imagine one day at a time with this must temptation in my mind, if it weren't for jail then I would have not even been clean this long. Don't get me wrong though, I WANT IT, and I am going to try my best.