Thank you, Mamma Posse, for all of your support. I really needed to hear your wisdom. Still with hubby, but by the grace of God I was able to relax and enjoy the weekend we had together--always rare, and always a chance to remember why we got married, and how much we enjoy each other's company.
Heading back home a bit later, but I continue to pray to let go. I find that a visual helps. In my mind, I walk with my son up a mountain, where we meet God. I kiss my son goodbye, tell him he's in good hands, and walk down the mountain alone.
My son has everything your sons have--God, and people in his life who love and care about him. The next step is his. Whichever way he choose to take, I firmly believe that God will be with him--and with me.