Originally Posted by
Auvers 
There is a tremendous sense of reviving personal power in making the simple decision that you will never drink again and never change your mind. The further from my last drink, the greater my power.
Do you see what's going on here? You started off strong, but then your AV tried to choke you off. It is trying to suggest that it isn't over 'til its over, that you're not quite there yet, and that you still have some more "power" you need to build up before it's really over. It doesn't matter how long it's been since your last drink, though, because you had full power over desire all along, and it's over when you say it is. So, set your confidence level for lifetime abstinence where it belongs -- at 100%. All self-doubt is AV.