There is a tremendous sense of reviving personal power in making the simple decision that you will never drink again and never change your mind. The further from my last drink, the greater my power. After getting through the first 10 to 12 weeks with no energy, no sense of pleasure, it all came together to create a lovely life. I have come to see that old me who drank to great excess despite the obvious negative consequences as being a person who was made weak by an addictive voice that I allowed to call the shots. I am so glad I became aware of it and took back my life. Good wishes to you, hoping you will get through the early weeks of lingering withdrawal stuff and getting your brain's neurotransmitters cleared out so that you can experience the power, peace, vibrancy of life without being the puppet of an addictive voice.