I don't even know what to say to you. I have never admitted what you just said. I have felt it though every day of my adult life. I am exactly like you and yet my husband still "ventures" out. I am raising the child going to school part time, working full time, bringing in the income (only income) and keeping a good life style. treasurer of the pta, volunteer of the year with the local senior center, and all of that. I think we just have to be happy with ourselves and know that our rewards will be great.......at another time. keep your chin up. you are loved.
nita