((Florence)), I have no words of advice. I just wanted to come on here and support you and give you a cyber hug. I still haven't made any dramatic changes in my life yet and now my AH proclaims he's ready for AA. So, I feel like the recovery roller coaster will now be front and center in our lives and I can so relate to how you talked about 'white knuckling' the sobriety. I know that's how AH has to do things, too.