I gave up on people and started hanging out with animals. I donít have any pets, but I feed the birds in my yard and the jays became very friendly. Thatís where I get the love now that the people part is dead for me too. Iíve become a misanthrope. I sat and watched the birds for a long time as I stared into the abyss and then I felt like I recognized one or two of the birds returning.