I think my drinking stole all my real friends years ago, my drinking was more important than their "boring sober lives" , all i was left with was a self pitty brigade of bar-flys who were suffering from various stages of bingeing alcoholic behaviour.
It took 15 years to loose it all to drink so i'm giving it 15 years before i worry too much over how much i gain with sobriety .
Bestwishes, M