Florence,
I'm saddened to read your story but inspired by your strength. I think L2L has pointed out at least one silver lining ---the strength that your story and recovery progress imparts in others. I know it has helped me today.
I feel particularly connected to you today because I know how hard this is with children. What a wonderful mother they have - you are not only giving them a shining example of strength and love but you do it with such dignity. I really get that from your post. Dignity.
Please do something kind for yourself today. My suggestion is to find a comfortable, quiet place and make yourself a cup of tea in your prettiest tea cup. As you sit with that warm comfort in your hands, open yourself up to feel the genuine caring and support for you that has been sent out into cyberspace by posters and readers alike in this SR community. We care about you.
Extra hugs,
MamaKit