blackfrancis - I was even older - in my 50's - when I got a couple DUI's in a row & my world changed forever. It was a terrifying time, and it didn't need to come to that. I knew decades ago that I was letting alcohol rule my life. I, too, did nothing but make a weak attempt at moderating.
You didn't ramble - we all understand. Glad you came here to talk this over. You aren't alone. Please keep posting and let us know how it's going.