Sounds like you have the support you need to get help. My Dad drank until he was 59 and was told that he had stage 4 liver cirrhosis. Since then, 4 years later, all of his friends have died of drinking related issues. He is the last one left. He never got in any trouble, stayed at home while his friends came over, so there was no driving. There was never a "wake-up call", this is yours and maybe it is the blessing in disguise that will save your life, embrace it. The sad part about all of this is that he says he cant remember most of what happened over the 10 years that he was drinking heavily. It's so sad to watch him deteriorate and cling to the things that he should have been enjoying all along, gardening, spending time with the grandkids. He's just too sick to enjoy things to their fullest.