Originally Posted by
Klia 
wanted to drink because you were so upset by the things you've done while drinking? What the hell kind of irrational notion is that?! Today I started to make a list of all the terrible, stupid things I've done while drinking and it just makes me want to drink more, so I don't have to deal with my own stupidity, which is stupid. Sigh. This disease is a real bummer.
Why don't you write a list of all the positive things you can do and achieve whilst sober?
Don't dwell on the past
It's all done.
It's your inner voice telling you to do it - ignore it :P