grieving
Just laying here in dark...4yo asleep next to me and I'm just missing my family. I miss separated AH, I miss our family. I feel so alone. The only thing keeping me sane is knowing I am making a better choice for my life and my childrens life.
I see him almost every day for exchange of our daughter so its so hard to grive and let go of someone who I'm still very much in love with when I literally see him. But I know inside that body there's so much healing that needs to occur and I am happy to put that burden on him to deal with. I can't live in his chaos anymore.
Things are ok, no drama. I just miss him with all of my heart...I am grieving for the man he used to be...All I can do is say a little prayer and go to sleep. This pain...it really just cuts you to the core. God help me.