Old 09-14-2012, 09:58 AM
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lillamy
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do you think I am repressing something
You're the first person I've heard who's asked the question I asked myself. So thank you. I've run into a couple of "recovery opportunities" along the way, but mainly, I've been happy as a clam at high tide since I left. The new man in my life (who has his own experience of dysfunctional relationships) said, "I think that maybe, after you've lived with so much dysfunction and stress and walked on eggshells for so long, that you keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like you can't really believe that life can be this light and easy."

So what I told myself was to start paying attention to what was happening NOW. Enjoy what is happening NOW. Life is good. If I'm uncounsciously repressing stuff that'll bubble back up later? That'll be a problem for later, if it happens. But it might never happens. And if that's the case, there's no reason to sit around and wait for it to happen and ruin my today.
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