DENIAL is a big thing here....
I still believe you are in denial when it comes to him being an alcoholic and it is a disease...
Liz...this is what they do...and also...it is, what it is...
I am so sorry you are finding this so hard...but your life IS unmanageable due to alcohol (and the alcohol is your husband)...you dont need to wait around for him to admit ANYTHING...until you become aware of this, maybe in your time, things will become CLEARER...