If you can, go into a quiet room- with your computer and go to the crash course on the website mentioned above. (Don't do it if you have been drinking or using today- you want to have a clear and open mind.) It is not hard and it is not complicated - it makes perfect sense and is very, very powerful. I can never think about alcohol the same way. I just can't. The people on this site are very wise and a wealth of knowledge and support. I would encourage you to ask questions and keep reading.