Was at a 12 step meeting last night. The theme was surrender. Something I dont get, if im surrendering my will why doesnt this higher power ensure that I stay clean?
I shared on what a difficult day I was going through. simplistically I put it that almost having the cartoonish devil and angel on the shoulders. That the angel won, but unless I figure out this surrender thing the devil will win the argument sooner or later.
It also bothered me in the meeting that the main share, a guy on 9 years was teetering on a relapse... crikey I dont want to still feel that fragile after 9 years.
Anyway, more bad stuff happened, on the way home from meeting ... relapse!
I was on the RR sight earlier , and it makes sense to me. So giving it a go. I do have other issues... so additional plans will also need to be made.
I am grateful for everything 12 stepping taught me, I had some
great insights.
Now my question is what are the differences between smart and avrt.
I know smart is okay with meetings. I really liked the comraderie of AA/NA , nad even a monthly meeting/coffee I would really enjoy
Ive read the AVRT introduction and flash cards , really cool , is Smart similar?