Hi llavendar. I too am a Mother of a 36 yr. old addict/alcoholic son. I can understand what you are going through. I'm so sorry. It all hurts so very much. It does sound like you are dealing with things in the right way. I'm disappointed for you that you had to come home to find him this way when you were feeling so much more positive about him working his recovery. At least you do know that he cares about getting clean & sober. My son doesn't. If he worked his recovery before, you can know that he knows what to do in order to work his recovery again. Every time he works it a while, it will bring him closer to sticking with it longer. That's my humble opinion anyway.
I hope that you'll keep coming back here to share & to read others' shares. I too, am going to an Alanon Meeting tonight, so I'll think of you. I'd love to hear how it goes for you. Hang in there. ************{Caring & Understanding Hugs}}}}}}}}