Thank you Titanic, lesliej, and EnglishGarden. Every day gets harder because he truly is a good father and sends me these stupid texts about having to stay in a hotel because he has no place to go and trying to take my focus off the fact that I was not happy with him bc he knows it drives me crazy to hear him just throwing money out the window. Had to come back on here to remind myself to stay strong. This is so hard but I know I'm doing the right thing. He was using my phone, my home, and my car and I took all that from him. I won't keep his kids from him but I definitely don't trust him taking them overnight even if that means I never get a break! I just realized though that this is the first time I'm not in a hurry to replace him with another man bc I'm not afraid of being lonely anymore, I've pretty much been alone this whole relationship!