Hello, YearForMe. Thanks for sharing. I am sorry for the pain you've experienced and understand your decision to move on.
There's a current thread on board in which I find the post of
EnglishGarden helpful and I believe speaks volumes; she well describes the despair of those who coexist with an addicted loved one:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...s-alcohol.html
I wish you success on your new journey.