Ive been told if I go to the sheriffs dept and pay my new bail, they will set me up a new court date, its just a bench warrant. the problem is they will test me while Im there, part of the reason I didnt go in the first place I would of showed up positive for drinking, same as now. I have to quite, I just have to, but its so hard, when its so easy to just spend $6 on a bottle and all the pain goes away, I can function again, do things, and forget the pain, and all Ive done. now dont get me wrong, I know its all a fantasy and its ruining everything in my life and I have to stop its just very hard
