(((Amber))) - Welcome to SR, though sorry for what has brought you here. This thread is over a year old (don't worry, I posted on old threads when I was new), but I'm glad you've found us. You may want to start your own thread as more people will see it.
I'm glad you're son is not living with you, but I'm sure it is painful and confusing. You're not alone and we are here for you.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy