Originally Posted by freshstart57

Obladi, I think I relate to what you are saying here. Tell me if my experience is similar to yours.
While drinking and reaching extremes of anxiety, anger, frustration on a regular basis, I drank to numb these feelings to an extent, partly because my SO, bless her, was not capable nor did she deserve to deal with this miserable aspect of me. Instead of opening communication, I stuffed it shut because my guilt made it hard to ask for support, especially when I has behaving badly towards her. So, I expected less of her, and I demanded less of her while passed on on the couch.