Sweetee - I really feel your pain.
I am in a smililar situation - seperated from AH with 2 kids - not an easy place to be.
It also gets on my wick when AH does the "poor me " speech and I'm thinking " yeah its real tough being in appartment on your own when I'm doing EVERYTHING else and looking after the boys too.
It will get better, it does get better - these things take time.
Hang in there - there is light at the end of the tunnel