Help...up and down
I just posted this morning about how I'm doing better and somehow tonight is a horrid night. One of those nights when my thoughts are driving me crazy. I'm the good parent, here at home in bed getting ready for our mini vacation tomorrow and separated AH is in his motel room pining away for his young enabling mistress who lives at home with her parents.
How is it that I have nights like this and he just goes on....like a happy clam, with no cares. He can play all romance and fun because he is not the full time parent. Somehow I just need to know that one day the universe will pay him back. I'm doing all the work and he's having fun like a single guy.
I never want to see his face or hear his voice. I gave him all of myself and he continues to drag me through the mud, even in separation. Someone, please tell me he will know the pain he has caused me and the damage he has done to our children.