In answer to your question... I recognize that my AV is telling me that it would be "ok" to drink socially. That thought soothes the beast... gives the baby a pacifier. LOL. But, it doesn't sooth my rational mind, and I think the reaction that my body is having is an acknowledment on a subconscious level that by engaging in this thinking I am opening a door. It is making me uncomfortable in a way that I wasn't when I just firmly stated "I will never drink again and I will not change my mind."